I thought being depressed would not come to a psychology major because I’m supposed to recognize all symptoms and have solutions to them. Right?
I thought being homesick would be impossible after living abroad without my parents for almost 12 years. Right?
A new, promising Harvard student would not be depressed and homesick. Right?
I was terribly depressed and homesick last Fall semester in 2016.
my first semester at Harvard.
I’m not really sure why.
I remembered crying a lot.
Just want to lie in bed all day.
Making all excuses to go back to Thailand.
Even though, I got incredible friends; I got fun events to attend; I got a beautiful apartment; I got my parents to thank for,
I still was depressed and homesick.
I miss home but not homesick.
I am sad sometimes, but not depressed.
A lot of things happened in this semester that make me felt like the most joyful learner.
I still figuring what were the changes from my last semester and this previous semester that made the difference inside for me.
Once I figure it out, I’ll share it in the next post.
To the future me, who will probably get depressed and homesick sometimes,
I want to let you know that it’s okay.
all these emotions and thoughts are okay.
part of being
so it’s okay
because you are human too.